Binge drinking… starvation… binge eating… throw up… repeat…
Fixated on overdosing on my tablets…
Fixated on driving my car into a brick wall…
Fixated on slashing my wrists…
Anything to make this pain stop…
To make my mind stop…
To not wake up is my ultimate fantasy…
The only respite I get are the few hours of sleep my body allows me and that’s few and far between.
Staying in bed for days on end…
Not showering for even longer…
Screaming for help but no one comes.
Emptiness…
I need to break this cycle… but how?
BPD- A beautiful life. 